relay

Now that the boss-man is behaving like a human being, the baton has been passed to another Executive. It never ends! At a meeting yesterday morning, I was shot down, and decimated over a 90 minute period. It was bad enough that condolences were offered by other team members.

This was a public re-enactment of a one on one meeting on Friday - a lovely send off for Thanksgiving weekend...

Once again the thought of going to work makes my stomach roll. I sleep with clenched jaws and feel permanently on the verge of tears. Nightly dreams of being fired due to incompetence invade my sleep. Considered going to HR about stress leave yesterday. Feels weak to consider it, but I can barely manage through this. The atmosphere is heavy, oppressive and thick with anxiety.

My team will be in soon. Need to breathe, shake loose my jaw and try to make sure their days are not as grey as mine...